A complete lack of empathy, apparently.
Listen to this clip. Something had happened and I couldn’t sleep. Please remember that this was my first time recording my voice and it was really weird in the beginning. Like, I’d start saying what I wanted to say and get distracted by the sound of my own voice. I’d talk, and as soon as I’d try to simultaneously notice if my voice sounded weird, I’d lose my train of thought. Then I’d have to run after the train as it went round my head and jump on in the last minute and complete my sentence. And excuse the bad grammar. I’m cringing as I put this up. (For example, I started off saying the word ‘unforgivable’ and switched over, mid-word, to say inexcusable, only to end up saying ‘unexcusable’. Even spell-check is mocking me with a squiggly red line under it.)I SWEAR I DON’T SOUND SO STUPID IN REAL LIFE, and neither do I use the words’ yeah’ and ‘like’ as much. God, I sound so retarded! I couldn’t do a proper retake, because I tried it, and it ended up sounding repetitious, like I’d lost steam. Anyway, here it is.
In case you’re wondering, I did go to school the next day, and I was pretty pissed off all day. Had a splitting headache too. Every time I would see that kid act all normal my stomach would curl. He avoided me in the beginning, and I acted normal. He relaxed towards the end of the day, which was when I had my talk. I didn’t say nearly as much as I wanted to, because it didn’t seem like he was going to see the err of his ways or think that I wasn’t doing this merely because of my brother. I really wish now that I’d been as harsh as I should have, not because of what he did to my brother, but because what he did was wrong, period. My reaction would honestly have been the same had it been someone else he’d done the same thing to.
Oh well, the only thing he can do now to redeem himself would be to apologize, but I seriously doubt he has what it takes to do so.