I’m back so soon? After putting up a post? Well, it doesn’t really qualify being counted as a real post, but still, I’m back. Felt like writing, letting a load off.
Anyhow, life’s busy. I’m watching the last episode of FBRS at the moment, and the fact that I felt able to pause in the middle and start something completely different really tells a lot about how much I’m enjoying it. I AM enjoying it, but as last episodes go, it’s kind of predictable. They had absolutely no noble idiocy in the first 14 episodes, then they restore balance on the K-drama world by sticking a truckload of it in the end. graah, but hey, at least we finally get some character development from Cha Chisoo. It’s about time, too.
On a different note, teaching is hard. Every class is different and requires a different approach. I have to be stricter with some, and with others I have to make it interesting or the kids don’t pay attention. My teacher sunbaes tell me I have to be REALLY strict, but I don’t want that. I remember my elementary school teachers as fun and sweet as sugar. I want people to remember me as the same, BUT I’m gradually starting to see where they’re coming from. These kids are different from when we were kids. They’re good kids, but their whole academic learning has been shaped in a different way.
I don’t think I’m qualified to psychoanalyze them , but I’ll do it anyway. They (the teachers) expect them to act all rowdy so the kids actually act like that. The expectations set on them probably do have an effect in making them the way they are, but before any further psychoanalysis, let me first give you a brief overview on the different types of kids in my classes.
First, there are the kids whom you can tell are light years behind everyone else, who probably were thought of by the past teachers as ‘lost causes’ and were therefore not paid special attention to by the teacher. Those kids are now so used to it, I have to look over them like a hawk to make sure they don’t fool around in class. It’s sad. Then there are the kids who do OK, who compare themselves to the stupider ones and think they’re all that. They think they know EVERYTHING, when in fact they do not. They shout out answers without raising their hands and are extremely cocky. Then there are the invisible ones. The ones that sit quietly, paying attention but not contributing to any class discussions. They seem to understand (I hope) but during Math class, they just copy down all I do on the board, which INFURIATES ME. The cocky kids talk while I do the examples and explanations then I have to go around the class individually re-explaining it to all the talkers. PISSES ME OFF. And you know what sucks the most about being a teacher?? That you can’t use ‘inappropriate language’ No bellowing ‘MOVE IT!’ ‘SHUT UP’ or ‘DON’T PISS ME OFF’ it all ‘excuse me this, excuse me that’, ‘please don’t do this, please don’t do that’. GRAAAHHH. I miss yelling when I feel like it.
Back to the topic at hand. The smart talkative ones finish their work before the others, and seem to not comprehend the concept of sitting quietly waiting for others to finish. They’ll turn around in their seats, or even go all the way across the classroom (while I stare in disbelief) and discuss their answers and shout,”I GOT THAT ANSWER TOO!” God. Don’t think I haven’t explained to them how I expect them to behave, but they keep falling back on their old habits. I’m bribing the older ones with class party points, but that’s not really working either, since they FORGET about them. At the end of every period, I express my disappointment in not being able to give them a point, and they all simultaneously express their disappointment. Loudly. I hate shouting over their voices.
I cannot understand it. Why isn’t my method of gentle love and care working? Why, when I set different standards for them, do they fail to live up to them? They all adore me, but fail to prove it by acting the way I want in class. This is mostly just one class I’m talking about, btw, the name of which I wont take for fear that some of the sneaky ones might discover my blog and expose me. Oh, that would be bad. I feel like those idealistic teachers you see in those movies where they go to a ghetto school and transform all the students. Except apparently I’m still in the everything-sucks-at-the-moment part of it.
Oh, and I took a break and continued watching the final FBRS episode. YAY for crushing noble idiocy! Yay for toilet plungers! Yay for Coach-nim! (Was that the sweetest confession ever or what? I still kinda think she’s not good enough him, but looking at them a year later made me reconsider. *Squee* Dong-ju and Coach make the cutest couple. ‘Timing!’ *kiss*) I usually hate time lapses in final episodes, where it feels too resolution-y, like an unnecessary short-cut to happily ever-after, but here I actually liked it. The two of them needed time apart. I just wasn’t feeling their chemistry for a few episodes. I kept thinking what would happen if they got together and it was less then what they’d hoped? Kang-hyuk out of the picture, would they live happily? How would they(read: Chi-soo) face living like an ordinary person? Would they have other problems? I dunno why I thought these things, when usually last episode reunions leave an image of a confident, happy future for the couple. Him going to the army, in that sense, served a legit purpose. It removed the effect of hormones and in-the-moment impulses and gave them both time to cool their over-boiling feelings down. What’s left is obviously, undeniably something that’ll stay forever, and in that sense, I am happy they did it. I’m just over-flowing with happiness for them at the moment. He’s no longer a chaebol, but I do think his dad will come around. She’s doing well, he’s going to do well, all’s good.
I’m glad they kept the main flower boys limited to four. I’d completely forgotten about Chi-soo’s other friends. Where’d they disappear off to? I’m glad, since they were sort of uninteresting and cutting them out let us spend more time with the others. We got to see Ba-wol’s and Hyun-woo’s slowly budding friendship to the point of them crying at the thought of saying good-bye to each other. (I LOVE their bromance). We saw Chi-soo taken down a peg (or a hundred) and grow out of his shell to make decisions based on other people’s feelings and welfare. We saw Kang-hyuk develop brotherly feelings for Chi-soo. (I loved it when Chi-soo finally referred to him as hyung in the last episode!) We basically saw a family. The ramyun shop may come to an end, but the memories and relationships that were built under it will last forever.
Thanks to Raine for the perfect screencap!